Just so you know...

just thought i should explain my posts a little. As I've been reading other peoples i see that a lot of them are what the blogger themselves think about the topic were supposed to type about. Well in case any of you are confused mine are usually  just little scenes that I have thought about that would go with what we are supposed to write that week. They are totally random and none of them have anything to do with one another so but thats just the way i write.

Maleifcent

 Maleifcent

Devil, Evil, Monster. My whole life the same whispered words following me wherever i go. Its not my fault. I was born like this, it could be one of them if fate hadn't cursed this with me. Theres a beast, a monster sleeping inside me. I can feel it, its always there. proof of it rests on my head. Two black horns on my head, I was a faire with horns on my head. At one point i tried cutting them off, turns out they have just as many nerves as any other part of my body, maybe more. But I did it anyway, the result, Having to endure the pain of them growing back slowly like a broken bone. I don't know who my parents are. They moment they saw my horns my dad ran out the door and mother killed herself believing that she had upset the gods in some way and that this was her punishment. I wasn't supposed to know about that. The older fairies who look after the young ones always said, with a sad smile that my parents had an accident. it was always like that. False smiles that disappeared the moment i was out of sight. And of course i heard the whispering. Another great part of having this thing inside of me i have animal senses. So i heard them,
" poor folks. They were such nice people."
" But can you blame them? If your child was, well that wouldn't you want to escape to?"
" Dont even talk about something like that!" at that point she had rubbed her bulging stomach with affection.
" They were lucky." the second one said, " at least they were able to get rid of that thing." I think that was the first time i snapped. The first time that i lost enough control over myself the beast woke up and took over me. The first thing i was aware of was the power racing through my veins warming my usual cold body. The next thing i was noticed was that i couldn't control my body. Then came the voice powerful and deep it overcame me. " there all monsters don't you see they deserve all of this." Then i watched as my teachers were lifted up into the air higher than id ever seen a faire fly before there body's trapped in a twirling mess of black and purple enclosing around them cutting off all my view but i heard them scream in pain and then it was over. the fairies were gone, no where to be seen. I felt the beast beginning to leave back to its slumber it took all the heat with it. I stumbled to my knees barley seeing the crowd of children screaming in panic, i heard the voice again this time not angry but still powerful, " I'll be back. "
" what did you do to them?" i had whispered
" They banished me to this world. Iv'e just returned the favor." then it was gone completely, along with all my strength. The last thing i remember was despair  filling my entire body as one of the kids screamed " what did you do?!" they hadn't seen the beast, all they saw was me. And thats when the whispers started.I heard them all they chased me into the only thing that could offer relief at this point. unconsciousness.

The little green monster

Jealousy. Its a plague affecting one person after another. Maybe its human nature to always look for something just out of reach and want it. But that doesn't make it right.
Doesn't make it ok to be mad about the fact that someone has a better complexion than you. Or that they have something you want. And then you just want them to go away and somehow disappear from your life with the snap of your fingers. Its like wishing for a million bucks to fall out of the sky, im sorry but its not happening. Or when someone has something you don't, you feel need the need to down talk them because if you cant have what they have, you cant just let them be happy you have to down grade them ( human nature perhaps?) We've all felt envy at least once in our lives. Some a lot more some a lot less. it may be the little green monster inside of you but its also one of the main reasons for being sad. I mean you see someone in a nice car and you think " why don't i have that car? What am i doing wrong? What makes me different from them?"  And then your sad and you try and some day you actually get the car and you're feeling awesome as you cruise down the freeway, until you hit a red light look around and suddenly realize that the guy next to you has a better car than you. Its a cycle and if it doesn't end then a person cant really be happy until they see what they have around them and appreciate it.

Fear

Fear

I open my eyes and wince as a my head throbs in pain. I shiver as i look around a cold feeling creeping its way into my chest. I see the trees around me. Feel the cold air biting my skin. I know im in a forest. But i don't remember how i got here. the cold feeling snakes around me as i look around, Trees are everywhere, there dark figures shadowing me in darkness with nothing but the moon lighting the forest. i hear a sound in the distance and feel goosebumps across my arms. I look down and realize im wearing nothing but a dark colored tank top and a pair of jeans covered in holes. I rack my mind trying to figure out how i got here but nothing will click, or make sense. My mind seems to turn into a useless circles as I desperately try to remember. ignoring the growing fear in my chest I close my eyes trying to ignore the cold, and try to think of what happened last night.  But all im met with is black emptiness everywhere. Panic rising I think of the most basic questions i could. What's my name? Such an easy question but yet to my horror i realized that i couldn't answer it. There was nothing in my mind nothing at all. I hear a bird of in the distance and automatically know its was an owl. I know it, but i didn't know how i knew. Closing my eyes again I tried to shove the panic rising in me  as i my concentrated. There had to be something there anything! Fear roots its way in my stomach consuming my entire body as i search in vain.  but some point i hit a solid wall. i try toto break through it to find a hole in its barrier and am rewarded with a head splitting head that fills my entire body forcing me to collapse to the ground. I cry out and grab feebly at the frozen grass, running my fingers through the cold ground as the pain races through me. It comes in waves crashing through me. I scream, tears streaming down my face until finally the pain lessens, its waves becoming less and less, I lay there bent and broken sobbing for the memories that are there but i cant just out of reach. Then finally the last wave comes washing the pain away, and brings two words with it.
Angel Starlight. laying the ground i feel a flicker of hope because now I have something even if theres nothing else i have my name.

Embarrassment

blood rushing, heart pounding I feel my cheeks grow hot as i blush as Mr. Jones asked the question again demanding what the answer was. I opened my mouth to give the answer but nothing came out. i knew the answer but with so many people starring at me i couldn't think, i could barley breathe. I felt there eyes on me everywhere. Looking strait at me, boring into my back. All starring at me. loudly, quietly the whispers flew into my ears
" Is she stupid?"
" Why cant she just answer the question?"
"Man I'm glad he didn't pick on me."
Sweat began to drip down my face and my hands grew clammy as i tried to get a grip. I had to end this, i starred into Mr. Jones face, " um i dont know"  i said lamely. he sighed and ran a hand through what was left of his hair. " Does anyone else know the answer?" he asked in a stressed tone. I didnt even have to look up to know that everyone had there hand in the air.
Everyone but me.